Anxiety and depression

[Mandy950411]

Hi guys always feel like I'm. Moaning on these sites but just so sick of been in constant pain tried everything from light exercise yoga medication music reading and nothing seems to.work in speak to.a therapist on a weekly basis my son 0assed away 20 yrs ago and sick of been told to try and put things in the back of my mind my son was murdered at 12 weeks old so how am.I suppose to out this at back of my head when the man concerned got just 2 bloody years for what he done I carnt seem to forget and won't forget but want to also be able to live my life but my depression is unbarable as is my pain with fibromilga and costhdritis just feel like I'm fighting a losing battle so sorry about moaning yet again just hope the day comes were I can write something positive for once xx

[HearYou]

Dear Mandy,

Sorry for the loss of your premature son 16 years ago and the murder of your infant son 20 years ago. Some of us have lost infants too and there are no words to erase the sorrow, so I will offer none. You have posted on several venues about your health and pain problems, and I wish that your tomorrow is a better one. You have the gift of your other children and I know your love for them must be great. In spite of all you have experienced, your good news today must be the joy and happiness your children give you. Bless you.

[Mandy950411 in reply to HearYou]

Thank you for your kind words they mean so much and my children bring me joy and happiness bit I feel like I fail them as carnt do. What I would like for them I do massive much as I can and I know they understand I just feel like I'm been punished for some reason I have never done a thing wrong in my life I had a abusive childhood and swore my children would be raised with love and kindness and which they are but dosent stop me from. Having these feelings and don't understand why xx just feel.so worthless at times and I don't say this for sympathy I say this as it's the truth they say time.is a healer I feel like I've waited so long and getting nowhere fast unfortunately I plod on every day and put on what ppl say is a good front but don't want ppl seeing and feeling my hurt but obviously they ate I'm hoping to move near my older brother which he is the only family member I have left and hoping this helps my anxiety and other things so keeping fingers crossed and hopefully be more positive then xx

[HearYou in reply to Mandy950411]

You are good, you are strong, and you plan. You are going to fine, I think, even though it is one day at a time. Sleep well.