I'm not sure what to make of this site just yet. I guess I will have to wait and see. My daughter is a mental health therapist. Through a conversation with her, she stated that if I were her patient, she would recommend me for partial hospitalization. She set me up with clinic to take an assessment, and they concluded the same thing.
My medication has been tripled recently. My current battle is due to a breakup, and some other factors. I realize now though that I have been depressed for decades, and events that would normally make someone depressed for a few days, for me, last weeks, and even months, bringing me to low, low places.
I do often think about suicide, and the only thing preventing it is the idea of what it would do to my daughter.
I have seen therapists in the past, but I already know everything they tell me. I never learn anything new that helps me change, or feel better. The pattern always repeats.
I cannot have a good, interpersonal relationship. I'm fine with people at work, they would never suspect I suffer from any of this. They don't believe me when I tell them I'm anti-social. But when work is done, I come home and click on the T.V. Weekends are spent alone, sitting in my chair, just waiting until Monday to come, then on again and again. It's never ending, and I feel like I'm just waiting for death to come. I do not enjoy anything at all.
I recently bought a new car, and a house, I should be happy with where I'm at, but no, nothing changes my day to day humdrum. I "know" I should be getting out to combat this, but that's like telling a cancer patient to stop having cancer. I just don't want to move.
First Time Posting. Looking for Peace
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