I feel like a failure

[dashboardchic19]

I feel like I am failing at life sometimes. None of my hopes and dreams came true. I wanted to be a stay at home mom but that won't happen. My daughter is almost four now and I still work an hour away to make ends meet. I am the breadwinner and I carry the insurance. My husband can’t seem to advance in his jobs so I carry most of the financial load. I work, then take care of my daughter, then sleep then repeat. I feel like a robot going through the motions in a life that has little meaning. I love my daughter, but other than that I feel like I don’t have much. I am 32 now, my life seems to be flying by and it all seems so meaningless.

[TheGentleGiant]

Hi dashboardchick19, I know what your going through. I know what your feeling. Sometimes our dreams don't go the way we wish and intend but that doesn't mean we can't have a beautiful meaningful life. Life will always throw us a curveball but we have the power to adapt and grow from adversity. My dreams were shattered nine years ago when my wife left me with our two baby boys. I was devastated and felt completely hopeless. I suffered severe depression for a long time but I can tell you that no matter what happens, life has a way of turning around. Hold on to the love you have for your daughter and husband. Know that you are not alone. You still are so young and have your whole life ahead of you. Always been mindful of the blessings you have in your life. You have a family, a home, a job, food and clothing. So many on this site have so much less and are fighting daily with there problems. Im not trying to belittle your situation. I know it's tough but keep pushing forward. If you are a religious person maybe spend time in prayer and as God for help and guidance. My faith keeps me sane. Hugs!

[dashboardchic19 in reply to TheGentleGiant]

Thank you, thank you. You are right, I should be grateful for what I have, and It could be worse. I’m sorry that happened to you, I can’t even imagine how hard that must have been. Your reply gives me hope. I want to believe in God and have faith but I have my doubts. It seems so many get solace in their beliefs but I can’t simply believe.

[TheGentleGiant in reply to dashboardchic19]

I'm just going out but I'll reply when I get home.

[TheGentleGiant]

Hi Dashboardchic19, sorry but I. Meant to get back to you yesterday. As far as faith goes I understand how difficult it is to just believe. If your willing I would just suggest getting yourself a bible preferably a new international version or English standard version since they don't have outdated English translation but have currently used modern English. It doesn't change the message, just easier to read. I would start with the new testament first. I don't know your background or really anything about you but it's a start. It also doesn't heart to say a simple prayer to ask God to open your heart to him and invite him in. This may sound odd but it's a good way to test the waters. Personally my faith has been what sustains me in my darkest times and I've had many.

[dashboardchic19 in reply to TheGentleGiant]

Thanks, I will give it a try.