HELP! MY MIND WONT SHUT THe HECK UP

[Danielpwood1980]

I have a paralyzing fear of what others are thinking about me.... It's almost as if I can hear their thoughts...... I can't keep a job because I can't focus with all the uncontrollable thoughts running wild.

[samjon1]

Oh sorry, I understand when you say you can't keep a job. Even me I can't. I can't even keep friends, relationship we are in the same train maybe someone else please help us if you have experience

[moseley777 in reply to samjon1]

Don't give up. I know it seems bleak sometimes but even if it takes baby steps you have to keep trying. You may not know it, but you have a lot of people rooting for you!

[CaptainCrunch]

Man... the racing thoughts are horrible. Just horrible. So sorry you are both feeling this way. I wish I could say something that was easy but making yourself do something is so dreadfully painful.

For me. I have worked so hard to get where I am at career wise. I absolutely love my job. But as the anxiety worsened I became debilitated. I forced myself to go to work. But I was having anxiety attacks every five minutes. I would put headphones on and listen to meditation music. Eventually I had had so many attacks at work that I began fearing work. It was dreadful. I eventually confided in a couple of my supervisors. They did their best to understand. But I began drinking tons of camomel tea and trying to listen to soothing music and I was allowed to go for short walks. I remember laying in bed not wanting to go. Ugh it was so horrible. I stopped taking kids to school. I Start getting later and later for work. I wasn't eating. I had no one that understood. I never wanted go back to that place. I would sleep in my clothes and jacket and wouldn't change my clothes for days. Grew a beard and wouldn't shave and on and on.

The walks really started helping. I would try to Focus really hard on nature. Eventually I looked forward to them. I eventually got to where I would jump out of bed and start walking around the block. I would get in my car and wait for the kids to come out to go to school. I would do one of those sudoku books while I would wait on them. I started carrying those sudoku books everywhere with me. To the bathroom, on walks and everywhere.

I am on meds and see a therapist every week. I am doing much better. But even today I am feeling the monster lurking around. I know I need to get up and get moving.

This site is a huge blessing. It has now become part of my morning routine as well. I guess I really needed to share. Thanks for listening. I know how you guys feel and it is horrible. So sorry. Please keep me posted.

[erraticthoughts7]

I can relate to your post. I recently discovered I have a family history of mental illness. I had a difficult time accepting the fact that I was displaying a lot of these characteristics. The subject is taboo, no one wants to discuss it or even acknowledge that it is a family issue. Had that been the case, maybe I could have gotten help early on before this thing turned into a 15 year nightmare. There is a physiological explanation to why these things happen to people like us. My advice to you is to do the research. Begin to understand the chemistry of your brain and how some of its inner workings can produce abnormal behavior. This has helped me tremendously. Day by Day I am learning to accept that this is a part of who I am. This part of me does not define me totally but it is an illustration of my subconscious responding to an issue that has been left unresolved.

[gogogirl]

My mind won't shut up about some choices. It mixes me up.