Hi everyone. I don't know what I'm doing. I have depression and anxiety and have been suffering from that for the last 10 years. It has mostly been manageable. Last year was when I started to really lose myself. A lot of things happened close together to make me feel like I was trapped with no way out. After seeing a counselor and going to the hospital, I realized that I had to get help or I would end up harming myself. I'm on medication, but I need a counselor to talk to. This is actually turning out to be really hard to do. I'm being sent to other places to get help and they keep giving me resources to contact. I'm getting tired and feel like giving up. I really think that nothing is going to help. All I want is to overcome this, but instead I'm getting stuck before I can get help. I kind of don't like going to the psychiatrist because I feel like I did something wrong when I see him. Hate the mess in my mind, but I'm scared of letting go of it.