New to this....

[patsfan2621]

Hi everyone...

This is my first time ever on a site like this. A little about myself..I'm a single mother with 2 kids..and I have been on celexa for years for Anxiety. It used to help but lately I have been all of a sudden feeling so so sad and cry ALL the time and I am not a crier. They put me up to 20mg of celexa and its still not helping. So its just been me and my kids for a long time now, just us going to the beach and the playground or the movies or whatever...I have lots of good friends but everyone is in so many different places with the ages of their kids, that its hard to get together all the time. Well recently I have been haning out with one of my sons friends moms with the kids EVERY DAY...and now I'm at the point that when we don't hang out Im a MESS...like all of a sudden I can't be alone becasue I'm stuck in my head. The thought of just going home after work and not going to the playground with her and her son makes me cry? And I'm just so sad, I keep obsessing that the friendship is going to end before its really begun..Like she will realize my crazy and not want to hang out? I mean I used to be FINE being alone and now I'm not. Its like I can't wrap my brain around the fact that life happens..people get busy and have other plans. I mean do I sound crazy? I'm going through a lot of other stress right now money wise so I don't know if that is part of it or its just becasue its been sooo nice to have another adult to hang out with that I'm TERRIFIED its going to end. I mean thats not fair to her to put that kind of pressure on her and just assume she is going to leave, but those are the thoughts that I can'e escape. And now its starting to effect my work as I cry while I am here..and I'm not eating or sleeping. Please if anyone has any insight that would be wonderful. Thank you.

[levymaria]

Hi patsfan2621,

I also suffer from anxiety & depression and I know how hard it is. I have one baby she's five months old I also have friends that have babies but because of time and other things there's never any time to get together with the babies. When I get really down on myself I also do not like being alone I won't even go to the bathroom by myself I'll make my boyfriend come with me and shower with me as well. The few close friends that I have which are 2 I have sat down and explained my situation and to my surprise one of them also suffers from both anxiety & depression. I say all that to say YOU ARE NOT ALONE we are right here going through this with you. You need to have a real conversation with your friend and just be honest and truthful about how you feel, if she's a real friend she will support you and continue to be there for you if not she'll make excuses and try to walk out which is also fine. You must find people who can support and actually understand and care about what you're going through. Being on here definitely helps there's a lot of people to communicate with. As far as Celexa I was first prescribed Celexa but then I was changed to Vistaril and Zoloft because it was no longer working for me return to your doctor and let him know how you are feeling but also give meds some time to really work into your system. Always remember YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

[patsfan2621 in reply to levymaria]

Thank you so much. It felt really good to get it all out and to know that I am not alone. I always make things seem so much worse then they are (Thank you Anxiety lol) because usually when I'm feeling like she won't want to hang out and all these awful thoughts are going through my head I get a text from her saying "hoping for a better day for you." And then I feel bad that I felt so bad haha. I'm meeting with my doctor tomorrow. Thanks again for reaching out!

[levymaria in reply to patsfan2621]

I definitely understand! Anxiety is really demanding and at times overwhelming but it's good that she's supportive that means she's a good friend & I hope your doctor can maybe switch your meds up so you can cope better, best of luck!