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[Mzunderstood]

I’m not one for sharing my feelings or emotions with others, so I’m new to this. I suffer from anxiety and depression and sometimes it’s hard to be around others who don’t understand it. Lately I’ve been feeling unattached and really down. I’ve been in a relationship for about 4 years now and I’ve never told him about my struggles with depression and bipolar disorder. I’ve been hiding it from him, I feel like I’m living a lie and if I don’t get out of this slump that I’ve been in I fear he may find out. Most importantly I’m afraid of going into a deeper state of depression that I’ve been in before which led me to be hospitalized.

[Hidden]

We shouldn't be in a relationship where we can talk about what's going on. It's been 4 years, that's an awfully long time to be keeping everything you should have a sit down with him

[Mzunderstood in reply to Hidden]

I attempted to once before, but I just couldn’t do it. Some people just don’t understand mental illness, even family and close friends😓😓

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Mzunderstood]

That’s really sad. Don’t jail yourself.

[MsGelfling1]

This man may know more about you than you think. If he loves you and you love him you should be able to talk to him and he should be able to help you get the treatment you need to feel better. It's not fair to you that your illness should scare you so much that you don't get help. Please find a doctor that can give you the pills you need to change your life for the better. I'm so sorry you have to live like this. It's just not right.

[Mzunderstood in reply to MsGelfling1]

I attempted to talk to him once before, but I couldn’t do it. Some people just don’t understand mental illness (family or friends) and I’ve experienced the tearing apart of relationships before. I do have a doctor, I see a therapist and I’m also on meds. I’ll admit that sometimes I stop taking them to see if I can win this battle on my own 😓😓😓

[Crabbing in reply to Mzunderstood]

Plz keep taking your meds..Do you think he kinda knows ? I'm sure he loves you and wants you better n honesty makes you feel so much better n doesn't he deserve that communication?

[Mzunderstood in reply to Crabbing]

He does, but I listen to some of things he says about other people with mental illnesses and it makes me angry. I honestly don’t think he will understand based on his views of the mentally ill as a whole.

[Hidden]

I was in a relationship that had many secrets which then led me to being hospitalized. Be honest....if people don’t agree with u or think it’s weird...they aren’t worth your time.

[Mzunderstood in reply to Hidden]

True!!

[Hidden]

I agree..if this is really bothering you then atleast bring it up lightly and abit at a time..you don't have to have a full on session with your partner at one go..find the time to bring it up little by little..if you get asked a day or so after how your feeling, then let out some more..I do think you should bring it up though..then you'll know where you stand regarding this..

[Mzunderstood in reply to Hidden]

Good advice, thank you so much.

[Strongest123]

Hello. I’m sorry to hear how you’re feeling. I think it’s important to let him know as soon as you can. He needs to understand that you’re sick and it’s not your fault. No one wants to have mental disease, and it’s a disease like other physical diseases. I just think you have to find the right time and place to let him know. Have faith. He will understand. Just explain to him why you’ve kept it hidden for so long. Best wishes. Samson

[Mzunderstood in reply to Strongest123]

Thank you, I plan on talking to him real soon.