For some reason, I can't get my abuser out of my head tonight. Reliving events but mostly just haunted by the emotions I felt back then. I find it amazing that I can still hear his voice in my head. I have suffered from depression, anxiety and PTSD for years.
I've been told for a long time and by a few different people that I "blend into the wall". People ignore me, when I speak they don't hear me so I don't put myself out there. I simply do not matter. Never have.
I'm actually a little frightened that no one will answer this post... I'm really hoping to receive a response to this so that I know I was heard and I matter to someone.
Thanks for listening