Surviving anxiety after childhood rape and abuse is an internal roller coaster that can cause siezures but professional treatment for the seizures is expensive so I work hard but I can't keep a job or drive a car because of the seizures but I can't afford to treat the seizures so I can keep a job so I can pay for my treatment so I can work some more. Nope it will result in death so boredom is again my biggest enemy and a possible suicidal threat since I require less than 4 hours of very interupted sleep a day while my mind races and races and races... I found a way to turn this off but it comes with side effects and the constant risk of arrest and all the horrible anxiety inducing things forced on us while dealing with the concrete police department and court system. The thought of have a siezure in the jail cell just makes my anxiety rise to the point of inducing one. The police will make no accomodation for people who have siezures. I believe this must change as people's lives are in danger both from physical injury and emotion devastation from suicide or from other inmates that are not tolerant of people with mental problems. What's funny, I'm terrified of having a siezure in jail but when Judge Ward "found" me guilty of a crime I am innocent of I sure wish I would've had one in front of him to force him to deal with it like I have to everyday! Oops a little emotional but I'm keeping it "between the lines".