Hi. I'm new here. Nice to find support grp. I'm 52 yrs old. Have suffered from extreme anxiety/depression since childhood. Also PTSD related to traumatic childhood including an extensive history of sexual abuse from as young as I can remember. My now grown son (who thank god I raised to be a successful young man) is a product of my mothers boyfriend sexually abusing me over many yrs! I some how turned my life around. Became RN. BUT have been out of work now for over 2 yrs because for some unknown reason the ptsd, anxiety, depression just decided to become stronger than I am. I feel so ashamed, embarrassed, broken, defeated. I was able to overcome this shit for so many yrs and BAM all sudden it overtook me like a tidal wave. My life is falling apart. I'm going broke. On mds-they help a little. See therapy -she does NOT help at all. Why don't I change-well she let me see her for almost no $ when I had no insurance and helped me get SSID. She just sits and listens though-no tools offered no advice??? Anyways I'm at the point that I'm so tired. Don't really want to die but also wish it would all end! Thanx for listening. Any advice is welcomed!