Not Sure How Much More I Can Take

[pepper2003]

Hi All, I am new here and thank you for reading my post. I have been dealing with depression, anxiety, awful panic attacks and PTSD since childhood. I have been on several medications, been in therapy and not much seems to help. Recently, my dad was diagnosed with cancer and my world has been spinning out of control. I feel like I can't breathe, can't sleep and can't sit still when I'm awake. I would highly appreciate any advice or guidance. Thank you.

[Mary-intussuception]

That's an awful load you're bearing and now this news of your dad's diagnosis - such a huge shock.

Could you try some breathing exercises - do you think ?

[JAYnLA]

That's a LOT to deal with my friend.... but your instinct to reach out here means that you know there is help to be found. Find the recordings of Dr. Claire Weekes in regard to anxiety... it will help. Taking walks helps. Taking hot baths or showers help in a crisis. Basically, so many of the things that you don't WANT to do when feeling poorly helps you to get through it. I'm glad you've found us.

[pepper2003 in reply to JAYnLA]

Thank you so much. I'm willing to try anything.

[JAYnLA in reply to pepper2003]

So am I! Every day right now is kind of a victory.

[digitalmentalist]

I am in a different situation. Every medication has made me worse. If I had never joined the mental health system I would be better off now. Good example..In the past, I have developed phobias but over time I could, I could slowly desensitize. But there was a short cut. Lorazepam. It actually worked for 10 years, Now I cannot get off of it and my phobias are now worse. Never knew back then that Lorazepam was one of the most addictive drugs Antidepressants, made me anxious which created my phobias in the first place

I had my first panic attacks at age 6. My depression came about after i was ob a medication for anxiety (not a benzo), I accidentally discover that taking vitamin B3 intensified the effects but it was not reversible, I then felt severely drugged ever since,

Then I got little or no sleep for 4 years till I found a nutritionist treated me for cerebral allergies, It was not a complete cure but I was sleeping again and working and still enjoying life If I had stayed out of the mental health system I would still be that way,

Then the big bomb hit during the Obama administration. The government completely cut funding to mental health services. So i ended up in a program ran by NY state where there was this psychopath psychiatrist who blackmailed me into his benzo detox treatment that resulted in such anxiety over months that I developed anhedonia, You think you have it bad, anhedonia is worse than depression. The condition means that I can no longer experience a pleasure. Once you cease to find pleasure in life what is left to live for,

I have been doing research on safer anxiety drugs and though there are some promising candidates out there they are too expensive, Like Lyrica which is used for fibromyalgia but it has been tested in the use for anxiety. Nowadays you want to solve the problem of medications not working you need to do the research and have a doctor willing to think outside the box

[Pearl67 in reply to digitalmentalist]

I have not tried, but hear such success stories from CBD oils/tinctures for anxiety. Have you tried? Considered it?

How is your diet?

[Epifany]

Pepper, sorry to hear about your awful anxiety!

I have often asked myself what in the world did I do when I dealt with stress better...and this is my quest as well and I don't have all the answers.

If you are in that sort of anxiety, you might try visiting anyone in the health field, talking to everyone mainly to get some support and often answers.

Be bold and put yourself in front of others! Just walk in. Keep doing it. Keep connecting, trying. Anything specific you need to make that happen?

[pepper2003 in reply to Epifany]

Thank you.

[Epifany]

To Pepper and All,

Have you considered looking into alternative spiritual perspectives ASP?

These really help me see life differently, its relieving.

Noetic - noetic.org/about/ and they have community groups noetic.org/experience/commu...

My mom LOVES this group! It ended up helping her so much and also gave her like minded friends to see every month.

Another online ASP very popular one is abraham hicks - esther hicks youtube.com/results?search_...

She has views on almost anything you can search on youtube and with an upbeat and humorous fun tone. Often this one will pull me out of a bitter depressed mood after an hour of listening...it takes a while, I know your journey.

I hope this helps a little more. Let me know. Hugs - Smiles.

[ciley]

you can take a lot more yet, you have years to learn, god bless you