I am a 51 year old morbidly obese female who wonders if she will ever know peace and happiness. I have been in and out of therapy since my teens. I am afraid of relationships and push most people away before they get close because I am afraid they will discover how pathetic I really am. I give up my identity to be what others want and feel like I don't know who I am. Just want to know what belonging and feeling normal is like. If I can help anyone from teens on up with my experiences then I would be happy to. Been on multiple antidepressants but am not always compliant in taking them. On and off history of self injury. Married but feel empty. Depression, anxiety and occasional panic attacks are my unwelcome companions.