Lately my depression has gotten so much worse these last 7 months due to a very bad relationship. I decided to try dating again after 3 years and the guy I got with seemed really sweet at first but things got bad, he had a messed up ex and even though I knew I should have left him I felt like he was the only one who understood my depression. Finally he dumped me for the ex and I was actually relieved! Stress wasn't as bad until she started harassing me and cyber bulking me, I had to change my number, delete social media accounts, and I tried to just ignore it but it got to a point where I started always looking at her account to see what she had posted about me. She would say so many bad things about me even though I didn't understand why. I haven't spoken to him since the day we split and I haven't spoken to anyone near his life, in fact I blocked his whole family and him on everything and her! But even though I deleted everything to stop dealing with it I still look at her stuff to see what she says about me. It's like I enjoy the pain or something and I don't know how to stop. Any ideas??