Hi, my name is Katlyn and I'm new to this online community. I have had crippling anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. I started taking medication to help my problems about 4 months ago, and it was great for a little while, but it's starting to not help anymore. The amount of thoughts that run through my mind every minute are enough to drive you crazy. I have, on average, about three panic attacks a day, and they have gotten so bad lately that I have started almost passing out. My depression is to the point where I don't feel the desire to do anything at all anymore. If it weren't for my husband trying to give me motivation and helping me get through the day, I don't know if I would ever get out of bed. I do also have thoughts of suicide on a regular basis, but I try to suppress them because I don't want my thoughts to hurt the people I love. My anxiety and depression have gotten so bad that I can't sleep anymore, and if I do fall asleep at any point, I have continuous nightmares.
I feel like I am a bother to everyone around me, and that I am a freak for having as many issues as I do, and having to take medication on a daily basis just so that I can somewhat function.
I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me, and I don't want attention. I just want to know that I am not the only person in this whole big world to struggle as hard as I do to get through the day.
Any advice is welcome as well.
Thank you to everyone who may take time to read this.