I am asking this question because quite a few people seem to have contact with psychiatrists and Community Psychiatric Nurses etc.
I have been struggling with depression for many years and have had counselling, CBT and regularly take anti-depressants (I have had various ones over the years). I am really struggling at the moment and never seem to be getting anywhere. I stress about everything and now get anxious. I have spent the last week off work, curtains drawn, not wanting to see anyone or them see me and not answering the phone etc. I feel such a failure and cannot cope with life. I have felt sucidal a few times and this all seems to be getting worse every year. I now have physical problems ( fibro,IBS, arthritis) which make the situation worse and now on a stage 3 disciplinary at work and may lose my job!
I am known to the CMHT and have been seen by the CRISIS team but I have never seen a pychiatrist or a CSN. My GP is a good listener and says his job is to help me to get better but he just keeps upping my meds and offering counselling. I appreciate there is no magical wand but this does not seem to be working. I try meditation, yoga, mindfulness but its the physical problems that now impact on daily life and then I cannot function and let everyone down, then get stressed, anxious, depressed and worry because we cannot survive financially if I do not work so then end up feeling suicidal.
My hubby has read books to try and understand but he thinks I may have bi polar because I have periods when I am not depressed and I am positive, go out spending and feel that if I am well dressed, buy items to make house nice etc.. all will be good with life, I can be the old me and have a good life, but it never lasts and then I crash!
Any advise as to what else can I do?