New member in need

[peyton_o]

Hi everyone I'm new here, I'm Payton, and I've been suffering from suicidal depression for years and I'm having trouble going on lately. It's gotten worse and I don't even feel comfortable talking to my boyfriend about it. I feel endlessly alone.

[Ronkoz]

Hi Payton! Just continue to vent and let it out we are here and just be good to yourself tonight. My partner also doesn't understand what these feelings are and how much anxiety and depression can hurt but he is only one outlet for you and I am slowly finding different ways and one or two new people to build a fuller support system. Be strong Payton!!!

Ron

[peyton_o in reply to Ronkoz]

Thank you so much ron, I'm hoping nice people like you on this site will become my support group, thank you for caring

[Ronkoz in reply to peyton_o]

Awesome Payton - that's great news ! Keep venting

[Hidden]

I have the view that depression and anxiety are problems deep rooted in the soul. It's to do with powerful negative emotions so my contributions on this site are for a spiritual answer to what is a spiritual problem.

Have you a faith, I would strongly think you have approached God with your sufferings, if you have then I'd be most interested to know where you are with that - following God is a hard journey and he does not simply just take your problems away, but his work is on you to change you over a long period of time

[peyton_o in reply to Hidden]

I appreciate your input and that you care about my depression but I don't believe in a God so I don't think you'll be able to help since your solution is a god based one

[Hidden in reply to peyton_o]

That's ok, if you have second thoughts then I'd be pleased to help you out

[peyton_o in reply to Hidden]

Thank you sir

[Ronkoz in reply to peyton_o]

So how's it going?

[peyton_o in reply to Ronkoz]

Still pretty bad, I still feel pretty suicidal and depressed

[Ronkoz]

I'm very sorry to hear that--are you able to reach out to professionals to start feeling some relief. Please be strong and reach out whenever -

[peyton_o in reply to Ronkoz]

No I haven't, I don't have money or time to go to a therapist and honestly I'm ashamed to have to reach out

[Ronkoz in reply to peyton_o]

Don't feel ashamed. I think you're being courageous even now .

[peyton_o in reply to Ronkoz]

Thank you so much. I've never actually tried to get help, I think this is a good step for now

[Cathy63 in reply to peyton_o]

I don't have money or time to go to a therapist either. I'm so thankful to have found this group. Since no one knows who we are, it's easy to be open with what we're feeling.

[peyton_o in reply to Cathy63]

Ya I really appreciate being able to talk here too, I'm not brave enough to ask for help to friends and family