Update on my paranoia.

[JChrist]

Hey, so I went to the GP (doctor) yesterday and I was diagnosed with PPD (Paranoid personality disorder). When I described my symptoms to the doctor she told me that I had shown a lot of the signs that I could have PPD.

Im glad to know what is wrong with me, I'm not an alcoholic, I do chain smoke which keeps my mind at ease most of the time but since I'm in high school I can't smoke on the grounds unless I'm hidden which is hard. For me smoking helps me deal with what life has handed me, it doesn't make my conversations with others easier but it makes me not care about that, I'm not saying if you have PPD you should smoke, what I'm saying is: here is how I'm dealing with it right now, and if you don't care about getting lung cancer then maybe you should try it. It's alot better than not smoking and being a paranoid mess. Nothing better than a coffee, a smoke and some punk metal to take your mind of thIngs. I've also got to know more people who suffer from different anxiety related disorders and I feel happy about that. Again, I'm not saying you should smoke. But smoke from a ciggarette is much better than suicide. Trust me and hang in there.

[Ronkoz]

Interesting I get it I chain smoke too and it started like the way you describe . Not trying to be a know it all but in time you have to add to your list maybe of things that can relax you- after ten years the cig just doesn't have the same impact for me though it felt for years like you described - be strong feel good

[JChrist in reply to Ronkoz]

Exactly, I'm gonna start a vape or something. I picked up guitar as well and it is so cool. Maybe will guitar and vape will eventually occupy in the place of smoking.

[Tiggerakafidgity]

Hey man nicely said but watch the coffee it's a stimulant!