Update: Went to my doctor.

I went to my doctor yesterday & she informed me that I probably have trauma & PTSD because of issues surrounding death & surrounding my dad's death. I'm not sure how to feel about it.

I am now taking Prozac 20 mg (one week only) & then after this week, I will be moved up to 40 mg. She advised me to start taking Prasozin (1 mg) for nightmares or insomnia or broken sleep.

What has Prasozin been like for any of you? I've never taken it. Apparently it's a blood pressure medication but it can also be used to combat difficulty sleeping.

I hope I can eventually get better & feel better for myself & for my loved ones too. I'm not sure what all is "wrong" with me, because I've been diagnosed with so much from years past, but I'm praying this is the right thing to do & I'm praying I feel better soon.

I about had a panic attack today at work. I just took Prozac a few moments ago & plan on taking Prasozin at bed time. I hope it helps.

[Sabbath1]

Sorry you are going through this , and for your loss. I hope the medications work for you so you can feel better .

🖤

[Jeff1943]

Of course I do not know about the relationship between you and your father but I'm sure he is not happy to see the degree of distress his death has caused you.

You are going through a long grieving process and you must let these bad symptoms come, they will not come for ever, but for the moment you must agree to accept them. Do not fight them, fighting only adds further stress to your over sensitive nervous system. Do not resist the panic attacks, accept even these for the time being. They can do you no real harm, let them come. They are not a nice feeling but agree to coexist with them and you begin to lose your fear of them. Fear is what fuels your anxiety disorder.

Accept and let time pass, this is the way forward through which recovery eventually comes.

[Hidden in reply to Jeff1943]

I truly appreciate that. He passed away nearly 6 years ago now but I've had these issues surrounding death all my life. I have always been petrified of death, even before losing him. But when he passed, I feel as though they worsened quite a bit. He had cancer but for example I've had dreams of him starving, of being shot, of being lost, etc. My heart breaks a little more every time I have them.

[Jeff1943 in reply to Hidden]

You say you fear death but you are dying ten times every week because of your anxieties. Why not give living a chance? Enjoy this life to the full, this surely is part of the reason we are here. So I say again, give life a chance, forget the rest.

I will not burden you with my own outlook but have reason to believe that when life has run its course and the point of transition is passed we experience a feeling of overwhelming euphoria and unconditional love such as we can never know in this life.

[AdamFCastillo31]

Sorry, to hear about your father. In my opinion, you should consult a psychologist ( psychotherapy), medication can help you for a short period of time. But psychotherapy can help you to forget/take you out from your stress/painful memories. Trust me it will help you I am telling you from my own personal experience. You will feel the difference even at the start. I hope it all makes sense to you.