Mentally & Emotionally Drained

[MISSUNDERSTOOD83]

Good evening newbie here am I alone in this group...

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You're not alone!!!

[BonnieSue]

Do you think you have depression or anxiety? Have you seen a doctor?

[MISSUNDERSTOOD83 in reply to BonnieSue]

Depression I think. I haven't been myself since I miscarried Jan 2016...

[MISSUNDERSTOOD83 in reply to BonnieSue]

Doctor doesn't help much. He gives me 60 2mg xanax and send me on my way...

[BonnieSue]

Have you been to a counselor? The doctor is only good for diagnosis and prescriptions. The counselor handles the whens, wheres and whys.

[MISSUNDERSTOOD83 in reply to BonnieSue]

No I haven't...

[BonnieSue]

You appear to need a good counselor to help you sort out your feelings and problems. You also would benefit from a doctor's appointment to evaluate whether you need an antidepressant. Both can be found at the website Psychology Today where you can see photos and philosophies, specialties, educations, charges, insurance accepted and so on. I must leave now for a short while but I'll be back if you need me.

[KI-100]

Hello Ms. Understood. Welcome to the group. I am a newbie myself.

[Jewelweck]

Hello everyone. I am finally admitting I am depressed. I've known for a while, but denial is strong and I'm a 'push through' type, so it was easy to pretend I was/am ok. Now that I admit it I don't know what to do about it. I don't have ins coverage for mental health issues and I can't afford out-of-pocket coverage for a therapist. I don't have a general physician and have begun with a new gynecologist who I don't think is the best type of doctor to turn to about this topic anyway. Leaving me with little idea how to proceed.

I am feeling defeated and overwhelmed by my very heavy work load, with little support there either. Conversely, my life is working out, I recently divorced (my choice- and glad of it), amicably and we are better friends now. My adult children are well and accepted the divorce easily. I'm dating a nice guy, I love my apartment and I should be happy.

But I am not happy, I'm irritated by every little thing, I snap at my co-workers, I dread going to work but I make it in. I feel like I'm wearing a lead suit, moving in slow motion, disinterested in doing anything I usually like to do. I hate being around people. I hate myself.

I'm not suicidal but I think about dying all the time. I live in a high rise, on the 9th floor and I wonder what it would be like to jump. How far I could get away from the building, etc. I don't want to die, but I think about it all the time.

[Nicole20 in reply to Jewelweck]

You are not alone I have been battling a struggle of depression and anxiety since I was in 8th grade I have now been out of school for two years. I too think about death a lot of never come to the point of doing anything but I wonder what it would be like if I were dead or if I am to kill myself in different ways.

[Jewelweck in reply to Nicole20]

Thanks for reaching out. It's good to know I'm not alone.