Lost cause

[Five5]

It's hard to be honest about your mental disorders some ppl feel like it's not real or it's something you can just get over or like a cold let it run it's course that's not the case these symptoms get worse with time everyday i damn near ask GOD for me to die brazy some may say only reason i haven't is because i don't wanna go to hell i'm already living in it and refuse to die and still not be in a happy place even when i have high moments in life i know the bad is on the way it never last long i never get anything right in life no matter something goes wrong I'm so tired of heart arcs letdowns failing everytime it's the samething I'm getting to the point why bother no cares no one to help if i sit in my room and killed myself no one would even know fa days or weeks that's depressing in it self i think the ppl that are in life would no problem with me not being around i have no family in my life no friends in my life talking about my problems makes things worst...