Hopeless and lost

[rudeseahorse99]

I don’t even know where to begin... I’ve never felt so lost in my life. 2019 by far has been the worst year of my life and I just don’t see things getting better anytime soon. I’ve never been formally diagnosed with anything due to being wayyyyyyy to anxious about going to the doctor but I know something is so wrong... I can’t even get out of bed anymore, I impulsively quit my job 7 months ago with still no luck in finding anything else (thank u social anxiety) and no matter how hard I try I just can’t push myself to do anything. I can feel myself getting worse and worse by the day because I think I bottle everything up... I have no support system- no relationship with anyone in my family and my parents are emotionally unavailable. I only have one friend who isn’t really there either. I have no idea where my life is going or if I should even live anymore.. I’ve never reached out for help before and I fear that no one will even want to help .. I know this paragraph is a whole ass mess... I’ve never been to good at saying how I feel but hopefully this is a first step. Thank you to anyone out there who actually read all this... all I literally want in the world is to be happy so I’m hoping something good can come out of this

[senorab12]

You are strong and I KNOW you’ll get through this! You said you don’t have anyone, well I’m here for you really. Take things at a time, don’t get too overwhelmed by everything start by doing little things like going for a little walk, or getting out of bed for a moment, breathe some fresh air. Hang in there, next year will bring you amazing things, just wait and see. You need to let out everything that’s bothering you like I said I’m here if you want someone to listen.

[UnorthodoxDinosaur]

The fact that you gathered the courage to reach out for help says more about your strength than you know! It's not too late to start building a support system. I understand how hard it is to get out of bed some days, and I encourage you to make that dreaded phone call to the doctor's office if you feel like things are not going to get any better. It's a pain to have to deal with it, but it can be done! If you don't want to take medicine, they will surely have some other resources to help you start feeling better.

[Chanshan]

You are strong. first thing we need to take out the option of ending life. Let us make sure that is not an option. Once we establish that, we should keep trying to get better. I know it is easier said than done. I feel the pain and hopelessness all the time. Let us live one day at a time and hopefully one day we are going feel better even if it is for short amount of time.

[Lisha11]

I can relate. Really i can. It's hard for me to get out of bed too. And i have one friend. Family is estranged. I just know if i keep going something has to get better.

I hope connecting to this site helps you. It helps me.

Take care

[Hidden]

Sorry you are going through a rough time with your health and Anxiety/Depression.

It is very important you see your Doctor and discuss how you feel. No ifs or buts, make that appointment. Before you go make a list of your worries, concerns and needs, this will help you get more out of the appointment.

Your Doctor will help you and suggest a pathway you can take.

Considering you are out of work, try looking for mental health day centres, your GP should be able to point you in the right direction. You need that support and be able to meet others, the problem is on most occasions the sufferer need to make moves to change on their own way. A course of CBT should help you come to terms with your condition and advise you on what needs to be approached and how to address them.

BOB

[Dolphin14]

I agree with Bob, you have to force yourself to the MD for help.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

I identify with your plight. 2018 was like that for me. I had all the symptoms you're feeling. I reached out for help to a psychiatrist and counselor and the combination of therapy and meds helped me get better. I'm still in the process of learning to live with my depression and anxiety disorder but it's so much better than that black hell hole. Good luck to you. You're the only one who can advocate for your health. Why suffer longer than you have to? I know it's hard especially since getting out of bed is impossible. But give yourself the gift of self care.

[mtnee]

My mother started slowly suffering from depression. When she realized she was depressed, she still refused to get help. She said my problems are no one else's business. She finally became so depressed she had to make an emergency call to a doctor and ended up having to get shock therapy. Not trying to scare you with this, but go to a doctor now. Don't let it get more severe. Ask yourself, what do I benefit by not going? What do I benefit by going? Please go now so you can have support and not reach the point my mother was at. And, no, it doesn't sound like you're at her point. So just don't let yourself. You're worth way more than that.