I don't know what to do...

[macaylabrock]

I want to die. I'm not going to kill myself, because I don't really want to die but I'm struggling a lot. Right now I screaming at my mom because she doesn't know what it feels like to be in my place. She's spitting shit. She's trying to make me feel better but it's not helping because everything she's saying is fake. She's fake. I've broken down everyday for the past week and I don't know what to do. I'm so overwhelmed. I am having strong urges to restrict and self harm. I feel like I'm going to relapse. Nothing's working out for me. The movie I just bought isn't working, my dress is taking longer to sew than it should've. I'm alone, I only have one friend. I'm loosing everyone, my mom doesn't care. My school doesn't care, my grades are dropping. I'm ugly and fat. I just want to go to sleep then never wake up. Please help...

[BonnieSue]

You know you need help, don't you? You need to see a good doctor, possibly the family doctor or a psychiatrist. Your Mom and you both could use some counseling. Individual counseling and maybe together later on. Much later on. When you think about hurting yourself, here's 2 numbers with professional counselors waiting to talk to you: 1.800.273.8255 and 1.800.784.2433. Please pick up the phone and talk to one of them every time you think about hurting yourself. It may be hard to pick the phone up, but push yourself to do it. You CAN do it. I bet you'll feel better after you do it.

You need to see the doctor asap. You sound like you need to start on an antidepressant and stay on it so you feel better. You sound clinically depressed. If you can't get your Mom to do this with you or for you, get another adult relative to help you. Do you have someone who will help you? Let me know if you don't.

Depression is an illness that makes everything look sad and like your world is falling apart and nothing works out. Sound familiar? It also makes you want to curl up and die. You feel that everything is too hard to do and nothing works out and you feel worthless and hopeless. Does THAT sound familiar?? Those are some of the lies that depression tells you. And they ARE LIES. When you are on an antidepressant and you get the right dosage, you start to get rid of those lies and those nasty feelings and your world starts to return to the better, more real world where there's hope and some sunshine and good things happen again. That's the goal of getting treatment from a doctor. The counselor will help you with dealing with all of this, including your mom and your feelings about yourself and coping with this disease. The counselor is someone who's on your side, but also doesn't let you fool yourself with misperceptions.

Ok, now you have a plan to get better. Write to me how you're doing or if you can't get help. I really care what happens to you.

I forgot to tell you that I have been exactly where you are and I'm fine now because I got help. I feel really good with the right medicine and counseling which are the usual answers to these problems. So you're no different. You can get better, too.

[Ddorne]

Please don't do anything to harm yourself. Depression is treatable. I suppose you are on meds? If not get to a Dr. And let them know what you're going through.Most depressed people have these thoughts, I am one of them but they are just thoughts. Do you have a counselor? Find one as soon as possible. I will pray for you

[Hidden]

Don't put yourself down like that. I care about you and I know what it feels like to have no support If I had support I would have been better instead of screamed at..Mu husband wants to leave and I'm suffering