Anxiety and Depression

[Savineubie]

Hi, My name is Savannah and I'm 19 years old. Just in the last month i've been having extreme anxiety problems which led to depression. I don't know exactly what the trigger was but everything was building up overtime like for example, I lost my coverage for health insurance and was really stressed about that. Then one day something happened to eye which caused my vision to seem blurrier than normal and I got anxious that something was wrong and since I have no health insurance I couldn't get it looked at. Then my jaw was starting to tense up and the pain wasn't going away. I was starting to get so scared cause I couldn't control what was happening to my body which led to being extremely sleep deprived for days on end. I started to question if there was something physically wrong with me and I knew I needed help so I decided to check myself in a mental health center. I found that place to be scary and now I feel like i'm traumatized by that experience and I just can't stop thinking about it. I'm on medication but I don't know if it's the right one or not and this whole life changing experience made me turn into this depressive state of mind and I'm just so scared that I'm not going to be able to forget the traumatic experience in that mental center and I'm not going to be able to become myself again. This isn't me and when I look in the mirror, I see this hopelessness mess and I just want it to end. I know I have to stay positive but it's so hard when all the negatives are controlling your mind and you feel like nothings going to get better. This has been the worst month of my life and I just cant seem to accept the fact that this is what happened and now you just have to focus on getting better. I've had AMAZING support through all of this and a family who cares so deeply about my mental health but I still feel so sad and hopeless. I've been trying everything and nothing seems to be working that much. Please if I can get some feedback, that would be wonderful!! Thanks for reading!

[Ansleyok]

HI Savannah, my name is Ansley and I understand where you are coming from. I have had bouts of anxiety before and have recently started having anxiety attacks again. I had a dizzy spell a month ago and that sent me into a downward spiral of anxiety attacks. One little thing and all that anxiety returns. It's very hard to climb out from that downward spiral, but i am so glad to hear that you have a support system.

I have family and a fiance that love me, but they don't seem to understand what's going on with me. It's even more difficult when I don't understand what's going on with me.

I hope that you begin to feel better and keep on trying to be positive.

[Ajax2734]

I am having very similar feelings as you. I went to an outpatient treatment center a few months ago and learned a lot of great coping mechanisms (CBT and DBT) which you may want to look into. It is hard to use the skills when you are in the mist of anxiety/depression, but they are good to have. Have you seen a therapist? That may be helpful as well. Keep fighting!

[Loveflower82 in reply to Ajax2734]

Ajax2734 if u don't mind my askin I have anxiety disorder issues myself what is CBT n DBT nvr heard of them b4

[Ajax2734 in reply to Loveflower82]

Cognitive behavioral therapy and dialectal behavior therapy. There are many books and online resources about them. Many of the skills they teach are helpful.