I got my first D in 3rd grade and my first F in 4th grade, and was used as an example by 5th grade teacher as a lazy day dreamer that was a waist of his time. As an under achiever, I was an imbarrassment to my parents. I became socially awkward, so I walked to school instead of riding the bus. I was tutored and held back a year in highschool, and sent to a private school.
As an adult, I could not keep jobs, so I had many. My first job was for a doctor, who was wonderful, and he came in to the office one night after doing surgery and he was concerned at how hard I was trying, since the job was over at 4:00,pm, and it was 8:30 pm. I had never reported over hours, because of fear that I would lose my job. He sent me to get tested for dyslexia, and that became my diagnosis. The job later became to exhaustive for me. I continued to lose jobs, so I switched to doing home care, and tried to take college courses to fix me.
In 1999, the college sent me to Voch Rehab, and I was diagnosed with cognitive disabilities, possibly because of being a premature baby. They tried to retrain me, but I still kept losing jobs because of short term memory loss, and my inability to work faster. My husband tried to cheer me up, by bringing me home and letting me retire early and some private art classes. The art changed my life, and gave me something that totally absorbed me, but even then, I fought anxiety and depression because of my past failures, and fear of letting people get too close.
I was tested a couple weeks ago, and was diagnosed with moderate to severe ADD. I have recently had an EEG, EKG and an ultrasound of my heart. Everything came back clean, and we are waiting to get approval by our insurance. All of a sudden, all my past finally makes sense, and for the first time I am starting to hold my head a little higher.
Are there any other members that are being treated that are in their silver to golden years? I would love to meet others like me, and hear their stories. It would be nice to not feel so alone.