Pls help me to decide after hearing my story!
I am ram aged 22 years old(male)
I had a hard childhood ,my father made me to experience like hell..he screwed my life severely becos of his character,behaviour and the way he speak... i know myself that i have a great person within but i cant able to bring that person out..becos of the reason that my dad discourages me a lot..he had said infront of my face like, your life is a failure..and he also superstitiously believes that his dad died becos of my birth.. now i am an IT employee he shows me fake love only when he needs money... but becos of him, the impact over my life caused too much of damages like,
i cant able to socialize with people, i dont know to talk good, even if i speak,people hate and bored with my speech...i dont even know to make understand people what i talk...i dont even know to react when someone talks bad abt me, this all happened becos i had spend my entire life till now just for feeling for a bad dad..i am behaving wierd..i am trying to change, but my dad mentally affects me..his presence always feels like discouraging me..
now pls help me to decide, whether shud i start staying with my friends or again with my failed family..the only thing stopping me to stay at home is bcos of my mom..
but if i cant able to socialize with people, i am damm sure that i cant become a good husband and a good dad because i wont even know how to talk with my wife or kids..if i stay with my friends, i feel like there is a possibility of socializing with them..
what you think..
pls help me to make a decision......