Everything in my life is great. For starters I have a great family my parents are not divorced and they are still very much in love. I always grew up upper middle class. I have had the same boyfriend for over four years and we always get along. I go to my community college and my father pays for it. I do very well in school. I work part time at a job that I have always wanted. I just got this job not too long ago and I really like it. I have a reliable car and I am able to pay my bills.
I have all of these things going for me and I am very blessed, but for some reason I am never happy. I see people that are in some really bad situations and they are happy.
When I was young I was diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and depression. I have been going to therapy for almost two years and I have been on medication since I was five. I also have anxiety medication that I take when needed. I have tried mediating, motivational speakers, only keeping positive things on my social networks, cutting out friends besides two, ect. For about three months I was going to the gym everyday and eating really well and I lost a significant about of weight, but then I went back to almost all of my old habits. I'm getting a gym membership on my next payday. That is the only time I can really remember when I wasn't always depressed.
I always find myself making up situations in my head that could happen all the time or I find myself thinking that certain people don't like me. I'm always on edge an have to be worried about something it seems like. If I am not working I am either sleeping, getting ready for work, eating, or cleaning. Is there anyone else like this?
Sorry, that this post is all over the place.
Thanks in advance!