first time on one of these and really need advise. Im 24 years old. In the last week or so I've found myself extremely anxious, hypersensitive and crying all the time at basic things, feeling so low I've had to call in sick to work. What seemed to trigger this is my boyfriend who I've been with for about a year and half drinks alot, might be a few cans a night to then doing shots of tequila on his own while I'm in bed. This really stresses me.out and makes.me.sad as he owes.me alot of money and we've recently moved in together and he struggles to pay his way as he doesn't work as many hours as me. So this night he had lied about drinking and I woke up to find he had been drinking tequila and drank my wine and I just broke down. I've cried pretty much everyday since for about a week now. We've not had an easy relationship and I find it hard.to trust him.as he's cheated in the past and will message girls when.hes bored. I feel like i am to blame as my emotions and the way I am pushes him.awaY. I've also had 2 miscarriages a year after eachother. One was 7months ago and perhaps.I haven't properly mourned. It was my birthday last week and we had a little house party with my closest friends and I really struggled to enjoy my time and had to ask them to leave after a few hours as I lost all interest and wanted to be alone with my boyfriend. I haven't been to the Dr's yet but feel like I'm.wasting their time by going in. I have low self esteem and have generally felt down for maybe 10 years. Lost interest in things I once enjoyed, don't feel comfortable with being in.big groups of people even if they're my close fRiends, sometimes.I feel like I can't leave the house. I've been told by a friend who had mental health issues that she thinks I have borderline personality disorder.
Sorry that this post is all over the place, just need some.advise.