I posted nearly a week ago anyway I was going to tell my personal tutor at college and I just couldn't. Everyone was really happy and laughing and so was she and I didn't really want to bring her mood down. Anyway my boyfriend has issues to depression and he went to talk to someone, he never replied for ages and I got worried eventually I had a panic attack and I've get them often once or twice a month Which sucks of course. Anyway last night was the worst I woke up araround 2am and didn't fall asleep until nearly 6am. Between them hours I ended up crying, wanting to cut (but I didn't) I got so low and I just can't control it, I want to talk to someone but I don't want them worrying about me or my carer finding out because I don't want people to worry about me. I also find it very hard to trust people due to my past so only my boyfriend knows about me. He helps but he says others can help too I'm just scared to trust anyone else.