I've been struggling recently with my mental health. I know there's something wrong with me but I don't know what it could be. I've looked at online tests and NHS symptoms but they make me more confused and I'm too scared to see my GP. I most likely think it is OCD yet I also show symptoms of bipolar and other things. I keep telling myself not to be overdramatise but I have this gut feeling that something is wrong. I just don't think the same as other people and it is extremely isolating sometimes. I think because I'm 'high functioning' others and myself just brush it off as nothing. I have quite a quirky personality anyway that makes me unique but then I wonder if these 'quirks' are because of this thing that's wrong. That makes me think that these quirks aren't specia because they are bad and associated with a disorder rather than just being me. I would just brush this off as nothing but it does get in the way of my everyday life and even when friends say they understand I can tell that they either have no idea what I'm taking about or don't really care enough to bother.
I hate having to put a label to how I'm feeling such as the term of a mental disorder but I suppose I'd rather discover what is actually wrong and then treat it that remain confused forever. I'm going to uni in September and am worried that my feelings may only escalate then.