I have just taken your depression test and I got 11 on it which suggested that I have moderate depression, I’m 18 and in college, in primary school from the age of around 7 (Year 2) to High School (age 16) I've gotten bullied on and off, whether it be name calling, cyber bullying like making accounts and spreading things around about me that isn't true, or going to the next level of making a fake guy account on a social networking site to try and trick me to meet up with him, and then when I went their he wouldn't be their but they would have it all on camera of how desperate or vulnerable I am (I didn't go through with it as I found out it was my so called friends), I would be devastated if my parents ever found out of what some of the things they used to make up and also Physical bullying as I have had a few experience of that (black eyes, nearly broken nose, bruised legs and arms). I have gained a lot of weight over the past 5 years because I would comfort eat in my bedroom without anyone knowing and still so sometimes when I’m feeling really down.
I have only ever told my sister how I felt and still feel about getting bullied and how low self-esteem I have and that I feel said more than happy, also I feel like people are judging me and my family aren't that proud of me because they seem to tell their friends about me just seems to be about my 2 other sisters and brother. I am finding it very hard to concentrate with my work and when I do something good like get a B in my work which to me is really good as I would usually get a lower grade my parent will be like oh right good but when its my sisters or brother they seem really interested and seem over the moon about it.
None of them no how bad it actually got and how bad it has affected me to this day, I wish they knew so they could of helped me all these years, I’m just crying all the time and I am really unhappy, I have had suicidal thought but not any further than that because I’m thinking there has to be something good for me or someone good for me.
I could go on and on about all the stories and other things that have gone on but I would be here for hours, please would you be able to give me some advise or give me people to contact for help and things, I also want to so if its true if I have any kind of depression or anxiety as my sister said it could be possible put I want it to be legit say with a doctor.