I thought as a new member I would introduce myself and tell you a little about myself and the things I'm dealing with.
I'm 19, and I've been in and out of therapy/counselling since I was 7. I had depression at that age and it's only progressed and worsened since. I also deal with a lot of other illnesses, I have fibromyalgia, social anxiety disorder, chronic migraine, and TMJ. Coping with all of these at the same time isn't easy, especially with how quick doctors always are to be dismissive about my suggestions.
About two years ago now I tried to commit suicide, but after taking the pills realised what I had done and told my mum. The next thing I remember is waking up in hospital, and being told to get out of my bed because someone else needed it now. They left me to sleep in a chair for the rest of the day until a therapist got round to seeing me. I didn't like her, she was very accusatory, and lacked the empathy required for that situation, so I lied and said that I only overdosed to go to sleep for a long time. I've never told a doctor the truth that I tried to commit suicide, because I'm yet to find one who I'm comfortable enough to tell.
I was put with a therapist, who while I liked, she just wasn't the right fit for me, so I stopped attending. All forms of counselling have always made me uncomfortable. About 8 months ago I plucked up the courage to voluntarily ask for help, and I was referred to a mental health centre by my GP for an assessment. The assessor was rude, and inappropriate. When I opened up that I'm socially anxious, he asked if I worried that people where looking at me. I said yes, sometimes, and he said I was attractive and it was to be expected. When I told him I felt my depression is only ever worsening, he told me I was young, and to get on with it and enjoy life. I requested to be seen by a psychiatrist, because the more cuddly-touchy-feely approach of a mental health nurse is one I'm not comfortable with, I'd respond better to a clinical approach. I was refused this, and left under the impression I was going to get no help whatsoever. About 3 months later, having a check up in the GP, and I find out I was referred to the same team I saw last time, and that they had refused to see me, and no one had even told me. I'm now waiting for my phone call assessment with a different team.
I've been on prozac once, and displayed serotonin syndrome symptoms, so had to stop, and was never offered a replacement, even though I've asked for one repeatedly.
Overall, I don't think I'll ever get the help I need, no matter how hard I push. Thanks for reading such a long winded post everyone.