I'm not from Scotland but there was no site for the rest of the UK on Healthunlocked so I was wondering if it was ok for me to be on here please? I have suffered with depression for 15 years, and was finally diagnosed with Bipolar at the end of 2013. My family don't understand me, or what I'm going through, and most of my friends disappeared a long time ago when I stopped socialising, and they got bored of me always avoiding social situations. I'm pretty unhappy right now, and don't see a future for myself - I feel like I am existing for the hell of it, really to keep my parents happy as they would be upset if something happened to me. But I have no wish to be here for myself, and I think about this a lot. Sorry for rambling, I just wondered if anyone else felt like this ever?