Hi I am Helen and I plan on changing my lifestyle over the coming weeks, months and years. I had my last fatty day today and tomorrow I am taking the first step of many I hope to a new healthier lifestyle. Although I can honestly say I am not motivated, everybody else has told me to do this, I know I need to do this, but it hasn't come from me. But I cannot continue the way I am otherwise the weight will just pile on as it has been steadily doing so. I don't know, I want to lose weight, but it is like I don't care anymore, I am soo sick of dieting and then failing and the cycle continues. I have no hope for the future of this diet the way that I feel but I will still try, I want to try more now then ever, I just do not want to fail again and again and again, I am sick of failing.
Okay so here are the initial stats, but I will not be giving you stats everytime I write as I am not going to weigh myself on a regular basis, or at least that is the intention.
I weigh 19 st 9 lbs and my bmi is 46.9 so yeah I do need to lose a lot of weight.
I decided that I want to write this journal here in the hope that it will motivate me.
Summary - Note hopeful!
Bye for nowX