I have rewritten this a few times to try to find the right words, but I guess all that really matters is that by doing that I'm trying to find things to blame when actually its me that has been making bad choices.
I've got anywhere between 12 & 14 stone to lose, so a little way to go. I lost two and a half stone last year but an op and subsequent pain / painkillers had left me not caring. The pain is now a lot less and the use of painkillers has been reduced a lot, now it's time to sort out the weight to again make me feel better.
Better and smarter choices I need to make, not reach for anti boredom snacks and not drink calories. I don't drink alcohol, it's just portion size and naughty food that are my issues. I'll snack on stuff when the house has gone to sleep, so need to stop that.
But I'm here to do this and to help others if I can.