Hi everyone,
I started my periods at a very young age, I was 9. Now I am 24 years old. Until 11-12 years of age my periods were normal/regular... after that it went all over the place. I would spot droplets of blood few times during the day, which would last 2-3 months, and then followed on with missing months of periods and then back on and off for the next couple of years.
I visited the GP at that age, took bloods, sent me for an ultrasound - which came back normal and just brushed it off saying they must be hormonal changes - it will get normal in some time (as in 2-3 years) if not then come back. I did, and at that time my GP was under new management so basically new doctors every time and it was really confusing. But, we just followed the doctors advice.
During that time, I put on a lot of weight, especially around my abdomen area (I am bottom heavy), bloating/swollen belly, have really bad acne, oily skin, significant hair loss (this hit me hard as I love my hair and it was really thick), I've lost so much over the years and it's made me feel awful. Well other than that, I think I have acanthosis nigricans (neck, underarm, inside thighs, underneath breast) my clitoris is enlarged (makes me feel really uncomfortable - I have never had sex and it just makes me fear that if I did, I would be in terrible pain or it would cause harm due to this), thick facial hair, and hair all over my body - belly, breasts, back, full arms, chin, neck, thighs, even inside my buttocks (if you know what I mean), I have somewhat developed a slightly deep voice not sure if it's related to this, but I know as a kid I didn't sound like this at all.
So, I went back at the age of 16-17 and had bloods/ultrasound scan which both came normal. I was told that I'm too young for any treatment, I should wait till I'm over 18 and come back, because they didn't want to put me on the pill at such a young age. And I personally do not want to be put on the pill.
Well by that time my GP had shut down due to some issues, joined another one but then I became so engrossed in my studies/uni life that I never really paid attention, although the problem continued. I eventually went back to the GP when I missed a few months - last year to discuss the issue as it has been getting to me really badly, especially because I have been trying to lose weight but it is such a struggle.
I began getting laser hair removal treatment for 2 years, which I stopped completely before the lock down as it worked, but only temporarily as I am still having hair growth - I got sick of it! Because the treatment is costly, and what was supposed to be a 8 session treatment, ended up being nearly 20 sessions.
During this time, I visited the GP again and the doctor referred me for a blood test and follow up, the result came normal. By surprise, I was on my periods when I visited the doctors again, and was told that since I was currently on my periods right now, it's best I come again when I miss my period, and then we shall discuss what needs to be done further, but in the meantime lose some weight, it will help. I was so tempted to say something back, but I just didn't bother especially as they were running late on schedule - the appt was rushed.
Anyways, post that I just didn't bother going back, it came normal for the few months post the appointment, but after that missed for a few months, and then came back on when the Covid became a serious issue. At this moment, although my friends/family are advising me I should still make an appt especially because my hair loss has worsened (my doctor recommended me to use Alpecin which I was using faithfully, did help for quite a while, but right now it's not having any effect on me, but I am losing so much of my hair).
I am not at all keen to go during this time, although for me it's becoming a major issue which is affecting my daily life, I think it's appropriate I don't waste their time as I'm sure many others are dealing with much complex issues and need attention first.
Finally, although the doctors have not diagnosed with hormonal problems/PCOS - I concluded that I am. And now I am at this stage where I do not know what to do anymore. I am trying to lose weight, by eating healthier, reducing my calorie intake, and working out more especially during this lock down which was a safe haven for me.
Life is getting back to normal, and I am sure I won't be able to keep up with my commitments. I feel so un-confident, so low in self-esteem, I do not feel good about myself at all. I've had depression in the past and feels like I'm heading back to that stage, I have always suffered from anxiety and it's become a part of life and I know it's something I can never overcome. So will be grateful if anyone could share some advice/tips or anything really which would make me feel better.
(P.S I would also like to add when I was 14 or so, I visited a homeopathy doctor once at the suggestion of a relative, who simply checked my wrist vein and touched my abdomen and said I have a cyst or something on the left side, although this has not been picked up in the scans I had, he did mention that this is why I have bloating/swollen tummy and causing my irregular periods).
I would like to apologise for such a lengthy post.
Thank you.