Hi everyone, i am new to this forum and looking forward to having many a discussion with you all
To give you a brief background: my name is Louise, I am 22 years old and have been diagnosed yesterday by the wonderful Dr Skinner with Hypothyroidism. Since the age of 8 years old, (and most likely before this from memory)I have been struggling with low energy, oversleeping and still feeling tired, depression and anxiety, racing thoughts, visual side hallcinations, muscle and joint pain during day and night, low blood pressure and heart rate, very cold hands and feet, bouts of insomma, low concentration, anaemia,repeated urinary tract infections, urine incontience, repeated stomach upsets with diarrhoea, irregular periods extreme sensitivity to light and hair loss amongst others. However I have not gained weight as such during my childhood/adoloscence, infact I have found that my metabolism has been very good as child, but as ive got older i find i can gain a stone in a week and then lose it quickly.
During my childhood and teens, I struggled to attend school and jobs due to excessive tiredness, I found it so difficult to get up to the morning. Granted I was also bullied throughout school, but i feel this was due to my poor attendance. I moved out of home at 16, due to having a toxic relationship with my mother and moved to Shropshire, then Wales. I completed an access course at 18, but remember how much of a diffcult time it was. I was always exhasted, and remember wondering how people manage to clean, cook etc. it felt too much for me. My hair was falling out and I barely had the energy to look after myself. I spent everyday and night studying as my anxiety was high and I felt i had to study all day to even pass. Eventually it was found I had anaemia, which improved on treatment. At this time I was diagnosed with Dyselxia, dyspraxia and adhd tendencies by a educational psychologist.
I then went on to study a Nursing degree, which I struggled with through my course. My energy was always low, and I couldnt cope with shifts/uni etc. I would leave classes and be exhausted at home. I also had major depression through my course and had to take time out after my first year, as I was crying in class for no reason and not attending placements. I saw a counseller and she helped me and recommened i see my gp, which resulted in my depression diagnosis and I then went back to uni and managed a couple of months of my second year. At the time I was also experencing great stress as my mother and brother get severely ill and that meant me regularly travelling to London (where i am from orginally and where my family resides). this put another load of pressure on me and I got to breaking point. I decided to leave my degree in january this year, as i was very depressed and sucidial. I simply couldnt cope anymore. I also felt like any little stress or responsibility was too much for me to handle. in the end I decided that I needed to take time out and focus to getting better.
since leaving nursing, I have struggled to hold down a job, i have a job as a healthcare assistant which again is very stressful and physically demanding. I am on a zero hour contract so can work when I please, but even this is too much for me. I briefly worked in a bar a couple of months ago, but was let go in my trial period, as I revealed that I had depression due to feeling unwell. I then went back to my previous job, but again have struggled to work, and have not been working for the last two months. I have to rely on my fiance to support me at the moment, which I feel awful about, but I simply cannot cope with my old profession anymore.
I have had a long battle to get to the point where i saw Dr Skinner: I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety in 2011 after presenting at my doctors with low energy and feeling low. I was intially put on citalopram (an anti depressant) which i tried for 6 months but found no difference in my mood, infact my depression was gradually getting worse. I was having suicidal thoughts, extreme anxiety, bursts of energy and insomnia and enlarged pupils. So I asked my doctor if i could come off it. I was then reffered to a local mental health team, who reffered me to a psych.
The psych refused to see me personally, dispite my long history of chronic depression since 8. The psych failed to diagnose anything specific, but just suggested I take mitrazapine (30mg) to help with insomnia. Trouble is ive been on this for 4 months, (just finished my last dose last night) and its resulted in me feeling extremely tired, despite sleeping most days for 12-14 hours, and generally feeling low still and having sucidial/self harm thoughts. So I feel that anti-depressants do not help me. During taking mitrazapine, I have put on 3 stone in 4 months!! I dont know if this is the drug, or a sign my thyroid is getting hypothyroid, I have not put on this amount of weight before so quickly. Although my diet can be poor, as I find my energy gets low most days and I crave coffee/sugar to lift me.
I then came across a memoir about depression (sorry cant remember authors name) who mentioned that she was resistant to anti-depressants and had hypothyroidism. This got me thinking, I know my maternal grandmother had hypo, and my mother shows signs of it, so would there be a possiblity I could have it?
So I went to my GP, and told her about my family history of the disease, and asked for a blood test to confirm whether i have hypo. My previous GP refused at first, saying 'Your depressed! thats why you feel fatigued all the time!' after a long battle, she eventually agreed to run a full panel. I then decided to see another doctor in my surgery as I feel her attitude was rude. My new GP is a very good listener thank goodness, and by this time, I had reliased I needed more than just TSH to confirm my diagnosis, so I request that T3 and antibodies be added too. She did say thats not really needed at this stage, but I asked her to do it enough times that she gave in! however when she tried to add T3 to my test, it wasnt an available option on the system. (I live in North Wales). I was absolutely shocked! Also I asked for thryoid antibodies to be added to test for hashimoto, and my GP didnt know which ones to do, so she just did thryoid peroxide.
So when the results came back everything was ok, but I had this feeling I couldnt rely on this alone. When I asked my GP what my scores where, she just said they are normal. (my previous GP's seem to be very reluctant to tell me what the actual figures are). At this point i thought I was going mad, but i really had a hunch I had hypothyroidism.
So I decided to go private and see Dr Skinner. I have read lots of posts saying how good he is, and how he diagnoses on signs and symptoms, not just TSH. I finally got a copy of my blood results from my doctors and I will put this below:
June 2013:
TSH: 2.0
T4: 9.8 (Scale 7 -17)
Peroxide antibodies: <50 (negative)
I was worried my GP wouldnt refer me due to his GMC conditions and normal thyroid results according to their lab. However she agreed.
I saw Dr skinner on Friday 23rd August, and initally was asked to complete a symptoms checklist. I must have highlighted 3/4 of the list, which surpised me! I then went into the consultation, and was very anxious (i tend to be like this around new people). We went through my symptoms, he physically palpated my thyroid and checked my blood pressure. He said my thyroid was swollen and asked if my GP had ever physically examined my thryoid, to which i replied no. He also commented that I show clear signs of being hypothyroid, and that my tsh shows hypothyroid and my T4 is low. So he's going to start me on Levothyroxine and see me in two months.
He is a lovely man and I found his humour put me at ease
So thats my story, I still cant believe I have actually been diagnosed! I think its going to take time for it to sink in, but at least I know im not a hypochondriac!
I hope my story can help at least one young person, who feels they may have hypothyroidism
Thank you very much for taking the time for reading my post, and I apologise for any mistakes or it not making sense. I have bad brain fog at the moment and I cannot spell for england!
Lou x