Ok, now where do I start............. I suppose the beginning is a good start! I went to a stop smoking group after being advised by my doctor to stop smoking. This was at the end of January I am presently taking champix, my stop date was 9th February. My husband said if I managed to stop he would let me change my car - I thought Fab!!!! I was doing really well after 8 weeks - then suddenly had a bad day at work (forgot to say I kept an unopened packet in my kitchen cupboard) well, after my bad day - yes I had one, it made me feel dizzy, light headed, horrid taste in my mouth - but I smoked it all. Then thought never again it was disgusting. But hey ho that didn't turn out, I am probably smoking 1 a week now and feeling disgusted with myself and so guilty as I now have my new car and haven't told my husband about my occasional lapses!
God reading this - its all over the place - a bit like my mind at the moment!!
Hey loopyl, first of all let me welcome you to our lovely online stop smoking community. You've come to the right place to get all the support you need to get you back in track again
Stopping smoking can be quite easy, however it's the staying stopped that can be quite difficult - as you've already found out.
Sticking with the positive, you managed to go for as long as you did, 8 weeks - which is fantastic, it really is
We should have no problem getting you back to a complete smoke free lifestyle again if you are prepared to crack on...
Thinking about where it went wrong for you, you have to learn from that experience and put a strategy in place and be ready, should it happen again.
So a couple of questions for you to consider;
If you are likely to have the same kind of 'bad day at the office' again, what can or would you do differently next time?
Do you think in anyway that smoking changed the situation?
Did it make you feel any better?
Is there a particular time and place each week that you have this weekly sneaky cigarette?
Are you enjoying it very much?
Have you finished your full course of Champix now?
If it wasn't for your Dr or Hubby advsing and wanting you to stop, would you still consider giving up smoking?
The longer that you go without smoking and then should you relapse, it is quite normal for it to taste awful and make you feel the way it did. Unfortunately, should you carry on, then it won't be long before the chemicals within the cigarettes start to mask the bad taste etc as they will start to coat your tongue, the cilia (hairs in your nose and throat) and you will lose the ability to taste all over again. Thus blocking out the damage that is being done and making smoking seem easier
Once I know how you feel about the above, then we can get you to head towards giving this last cigarette up.
Remembering to stay positive will help big time. Think of all the ones that you haven't smoked...
Let us help you to help yourself