Wow I'm feeling sad, and I don't really know why. It's possibly a couple of things which started it, one being not getting a grant we'd applied for and another being a visitor who sat next to me at my desk and I could smell he had been smoking - I just don't know. The whole day was actually a good one, celebrating yet another birthday and we had cake etc - but this feeling stuck with me and as I left the office, into gorgeous sunshine, and walked to my car it was like I could taste the tobacco. The trigger lasted all the way home - I stopped at the co-op, walked into the shop, remembered I hadn't come to buy anything then went out again and straight to the cashpoint to get some cash for tonight. I then got into the car and drove straight home.
I thought I'd be okay if I used my e-cig when I got home but this feeling doesn't seem to be lifting. I'm also feeling tired.
I could understand it if it had been a rubbish day at work, I've had at least 2 great night's sleep and my mouth feels better so I'm not actually suffering at the moment. it could be I'm tired and upset because I had this ginormous trigger to deal with. Or I guess it could have been the big sugar rush I got after eating some cake which has now dipped again. Actually I'm feeling a bit sickly so it is probably that.
I'll be fine, I'm just pouring it out to get rid of it and then I'll be fine again soon - sorry for being a grumpy and I hope that everyone is feeling fantastic xxx