I have had a lot of bad stuff happening this week and was taken over the edge totally on Tuesday. This ended up with me reaching out for my normal crutch.
Firstly on Tuesday morning I found out that my step - grandad had passed away in his bed on Friday (wasn't found until Monday evening). Then yesterday was the 9th anniversary of the last time I had physical contact with my youngest 2 children ( now 13 and 12).
After smoking 20 fags over 2 days I feel both disgusted in myself and very down in the dumps. I was doing soooo well too at 5 months quit but back on the wagon again now I hope!!
Monky remove my badge if you want to!! I'm pretty much passed caring atm.