Day 28!!!! I want to be honest as I don't want to be fooling anyone, most of all myself.
Day 16 at a friends BBQ I had about 6 puffs on a vape that had nicotine in (although unsure of the mg) & then on day 19 I had girlfriends over for dinner & one of them smoked, after running around all day & then prepping the food & drinking wine my guard was down & I puffed on a shared menthol with her, when she left I sneakily asked her to leave me one (as you do) & smoked it as fast as I could outside so hubby wouldn't catch me. In the morning I awoke & straight away was consumed with self hatred. I saw that dirty nub end outside & thought to myself......I am going to win this battle!
So am not sure if any badges should be awarded to me.
It's been tough, tears, tantrums & fights in my head! The thoughts running through your mind are crazy! Inviting parents round for dinner cos you know they have ciggies on them, visiting friends in the village that smoke, crazy thoughts but they are getting less & less.
Anyway the point of my post apart from being honest with you guys & myself is to give positivity to the newbies starting out, it's tough but CAN be done.
Am off for my Couch to 5k run that I started the same time as my quit journey, Week 4!
Happy Sunday everyone xx
PS Can I still keep using the NHS smoke free app after 28 days??