I am having some trouble feeling in control, and have a sense of 'lost something, what is it?', but KNOW that I don't what to smoke again. I can't seem to get nearly as much done in a day, bit of a wandering, less focussed feeling, am I turning into a lazy, loungy person...... ?
I just can't seem to get started on things as well as I could before, and for that matter, can't seem to finish them either! Right now, I can't get up!!
I think the cigarettes helped me to put the structure in my day, my full stops and new paragraphs, question marks and exclamation marks!!!
For example. Wake up > need nic > go outside > have fag > job done > now get on and do x > finish x or have a break from x > congratulate self with fag > either get back to x or start y >
I could go on, not sure I'm getting across what I mean, but I think it's the punctuation that's missing for me, my structure. Hmmmmm. Any thoughts, help and suggestions gratefully received