Well it's the eve to my year of not smoking. I am shocked that I have got this far as apart from when I stopped smoking when I was pregnant my other quits only lasted a few weeks. I loved smoking and had done it for 20 odd years
It's been one of the hardest things that I have done and at times like all of us non smokers I have been so tempted to light up. But I haven't and I'm so glad I didn't
Honesty all of you that are on your journey it gets better the craving gets better and you cope with it
I was very ill with all the symptoms from bleeding gums, shooting chest pains, Stomach acid, cold face, body aches , not sleeping, the phlem was awfull, being miserable and the worst was anxiety googling every symptom and diagnosing cancer weekly. This all went on for about nine months and in that time I was at my docs weekly crying as I wasn't me and when would I feel normal again. I even gave myself a year of if I wasn't any better then I would buy a pack and start again just to feel normal.
However a year on, no I will never smoke again most symptoms have gone I feel like me, still miserable but I think that may be an age thing!! I'm no longer on acid tablets and the anxity is managable so I'm not googling every thing. My skin is better not so wrinkly and I have saved over two thousand pounds in a year. I'm not panicking when I can fit a fag in how many I can have . It no longer controls my life. I smell better I go out jogging when I can. In fact something happen and I was shocked that my first thought wasn't I need a fag.. The stone I gained in weight is slowly going as my mentabilsm seems to of sorted it's self out.
So if you haven't feel asleep reading this essay it gets better honestly I promise you. Take a day at a time your taking control