I quit by using the e-cigarette. It was probably the beginning of August 2013 my husband and I both purchased an e-cigarette kit with the intention of trying to get off the real thing. I had been smoking at least a pack a day for 30 years and was really tired of not being able to breathe. The nicotine cartridge for the e-cig lasted me about two weeks. Seems I wasn't smoking as long or as much with the e-cig. I only changed the cartridge once from the time I bought it to the time I quit. On September 13th I came into work and stood outside with the fellow smoking co-workers and pulled out my e-cig, looked at it and just didn't want it. I put it back in the case and never took it out again.
With all that being said I hope someone out there is going through, or has gone through, the same thing I am. A good friend of mine is a psychologist who quit smoking a whole lot of years ago. She was on Facebook last Friday night when I couldn't sleep and I had a chat with her about how I was feeling....I had a whole lot of anxiety breathing going on, couldn't sleep, fighting horrible anxiety attacks when I tried to go sleep. So during my chat with her she remembered that my one-year anniversary was coming up in a week and told me that, like clockwork, the mind and body go through secondary withdrawal at six months and one year after quitting. Does this sound like something anyone else has gone through on this timetable?
I do have a very high stress job, I work in a domestic violence and sexual assault shelter, and have to work closely with the participants in shelter as well as the hotline that rings all day long. I do realize that my "pattern" used to be that after a particularly bad hotline or a participant in crisis I would go outside and smoke with a co-worker and decompress. I notice now that because I'm not smoking I rarely leave my desk/phone/shelter office during the day. I'm afraid that if I go back to the "pattern" of decompression then I will go back to smoking.
I just can't seem to shake the feeling of being horribly afraid of not waking up in the morning. Intellectually I know that I'm breathing just fine, I'm not dizzy and my nail beds are very white, which tells me I'm getting plenty of oxygen so what I'm feeling has to be anxiety related.
Can someone please tell me that I'm not going crazy?!?!?