Well this week I have done something that I have never actually done before, aside from when I was a child. I went away on a short break as a non smoker. It was so nice to enter the room we were staying in, see the non smoking sign and not being affected by it.
I do still use my e-cig but less and less. I spent a couple of days down in Dorset this week. We stayed in Highcliffe so were able to take in the beach area and a little of the New Forest. All in all we went for 3 walks during Thursday. I was able to see just how much my fitness level has improved because I am not smoking anymore. In the morning we walked along one part of the beach at a place called Mudeford and incorporated a walk around part of the Mudeford Quay. Although it had been raining that really didn't matter because it made the temperature perfect for walking. It's a really unspoilt place, I think.
After a spot of lunch we headed off to the New Forest. The only other forest I am familiar with is Epping Forest, which is local to where I live and a place I love. I think the New Forest is just as beautiful, I have to say. We kind of headed off into the forest and it was quite hilly. I loved the fact that I didn't have a problem with that, from a breathing point of view, I was able to just enjoy it. As I wasn't distracted by any real physical problems I was able to enjoy the vastness of the trees and even spot a solitary beetle from afar. I'm quite observant in that way. It was just stunning.
In the evening we had planned to have a meal at a resturant that overlooked the sea but when we got there, were so taken in by how amazing the sea look and that part of the beach that we went for a walk instead. That was when we encountered Highcliffe's answer to Watership Down. Rabbits in abundance. I've never seen so many. It was a lovely sight and I think because they must be used to people we were able to get up quite close. In the distance we could see the Needles rocks. I got all excited because I've never been to Dorset before and I correctly identified the rocks which ofcourse meant that we were not that far from the Isle of Wight. You could say that I was quite like an excited bunny.......lol.
Lastly I will say that it's the first time that I have had a break from work and not constantly thought and talked about work. My partner agreed. Usually when I am not working I am still just as stressed and anxious. I barely mentioned work, if at all. Admittedly I was still a chatterbox but not about work. Which brings me to my current thoughts about what has changed about me because I am no longer smoking. I think that I am beginning to think more clearly. I still get stressed and anxious but I can identify why. When I smoked, I believe that clouded a lot of things which in turn made finding solutions more difficult. I certainly don't have all the answers and wouldn't expect to but I do have one less thing to worry about, and that is the effect that smoking was having on my life. A very huge worry that is fading away.