Well, after my 7 day wobble I seem to have picked up and finding things not quite so difficult. I've managed to prise myself away from my desk to go and sit with the smokers for a 'bench' meeting as we call it, without feeling the desire to forcibly remove one of the nasty little articles from my colleagues fingers and indulge. In fact it feels really good to be able to sit there with them and not feel that urge to smoke. Hopefully I'm not counting my chickens too soon as I'm sure there will still be times when I'm climbing the walls.
The other good thing today was being able to accept a dinner invitation from friends without worrying about how or when I was going to get my fix if I accepted. Much as my friends are tolerant and accepting they are avid non-smokers and I have always felt awful accepting dinner from them then running out the front of their house to smoke a hasty cig only to return, stinking of stale smoke, to their lovely abode. Tonight I was able to eat and hold conversation after eating without feeling that fretful nicotine resentment.
I have decided that I'm going to keep a diary of all the good things that have happened or that I feel since deciding that I no longer want to smoke. That way if/when I have another wobble I can look at all the good that has come from it rather than just reasons not to do it.
Here's to another smoke free day tomorrow and many more to come