I was watching an episode of Buffy The Vampire Slayer on Thursday evening- an episode where Willow totally hits rock bottom and realises shes got a magic problem. Watching her realise, and begging for help was when I realised something I already knew- that I was more than addicted I was obsessed with smoking- it was just time I stopped. I didn't even think about having one last cig to say goodbye- I didn't need to. I had enough and from a tv show! How random is that!
I started using patches yesterday around 12pm- it's 25 mg for 16 hours and it felt fine all day yesterday until about 10pm that night. My skin under the patch felt quite warm and really itchy so it was a relief to take it off for bedtime. I now have a little rash there, it's a bit itchy. Am I allergic or is this normal? To be honest, a rash and a bit of itching is much better than smoking eh
I've been a heavy smoker (40-45 cigs a day) for roughly 10 years, and cigs were my life in a really obsessive way. I quit a few years ago for 4 months because the hospital told me if I smoked again I would die- I didn't obviously but I think at that time I quit for the wrong reasons. I feel truly blessed and lucky that I got my moment of clarity, the moment you know you've had enough and want to quit. Obviously the cravings are a bit hellish, but I scream at them to go away (looking insane but it works) haha!
I quit because I'd rather spend £70 quid a week on something else. Hell of a wonderful way to look at it- the things you can buy for £70! Makes me so happy when I remember to focus on this when the cravings hit. Does anyone else feel like everything is fine, then it's like a slap in the face when you remember that you don't smoke anymore, almost like someone's taken the next step away and you stumble briefly? I don't expect that feeling will ever go away but I will have to learn to live with it because I can do this!