Hard not to give up

16 years ago had new left hip short while after because of the pain found muscle not stitched still pain another op they fitted wrong joint still pain GP update to 220 OxyContin &160 oxynorm when’s private found extensive nerve damage had spinal implant left knee replaced then infected clean out 3 weeks later massive infection 15 days in hospital doctors answer stop the pain tablets still need right knee right hip and left knee nerve damaged planta fibrosis in both feet hard work does kill the end ???????