Hi all after recently joining this website I've been following many of your stories and am blown away by the love and warmth of the people here. I'm not usually one to share when things are bad, more of an advice seeking person but today I'm in a bad place and scared. I have like many of you a host of health problems, ME/CFs, Fibromyalgia (recently diagnosed) arthritis, back and neck and leg pain blah blah. Currently waiting to have a bone scan to see if hip replacement implant has moved, I have an Accolade implant which I gather can cause problems with approx. 5% of women (and of course I'm possibly one!!!). Ive had to leave my beloved job as a midwife after several years. finance are bad.... you all know the picture I'm sure.
But today I'm feeling so desolate, is this my life from now on I'm 51? The pain as you all know is relentless, I try to battle to stay positive but its exhausting. I find myself wondering if Id be better off not here, I feel so guilty because my beautiful 22 year old daughter has also been diagnosed with ME. My husband is wonderful but our intimate life is suffering badly. we have only been together for ten years and my God what a different person I am today to the one he met! It's hard for me to open up emotionally to anyone, years of practice, but today I need to reach out to the very people I know totally understand my pain. Thank you for listening.