Seriously; how? I cannot see any point. I can't do it. There's no point in people saying 'you're strong' blah blah blah. Nope. not any more. I don't know how any of you cope. It's too much. How are you supposed to bother and survive when every second is agony in all of your body and your body continues to deteriorate and nobody will even take you seriously let alone diagnose you or treat you????? How are you supposed to carry on when people dismiss you and are cruel to you and even when they try to understand they say dumbass stuff like 'well I was really busy today' etc when SORRY I was in too much agony to move, I WISH I could have worked hard and been busy... how how how and why why why when everything gets taken away from you> all the potential you had, all the things I could have achieved that I Will never never never do now. Nothing. That's what I can do. So what's the point of me laying around being useless- no, worse than that, a BURDEN to everybody, what's the point? i can't do it any more. 6 years of being ignored and suffering is too much for me. I know some of you have 20, 30, 40 years of this but i can't do it any more. I literally pray and pray and pray and beg that i will die in my sleep or something so i can do everyone including myself a bloody favour. maybe i am selfish and pathetic but maybe the pain is too much. I don't know who I am any more. I am not me. not who i could have and should have been and i want it to be over. I'll probably be criticised for seeking attention but no i am not, i am going mad from agony and loneliness and lack of sleep and losing myself. Sorry.