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Nowandforever
Nowandforever

I got a call today that my very special relative Bill passed away, I’m totally devastated and have had 2 drinks and are now thinking about fags. It’s a self destructive thing I think - feeling so sad.

I adored him, such a special human being.

the thing is he gave up 7 yrs ago and was on me about stopping. I know he’d hate me to have one cause of his passing.

Need support....

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Scarlet123
Scarlet1231 Year Smoke Free

RIP Bill. It’s the initial shock coupled with some drinks of course the craving for a puff is there. Be strong ‘ cause it will pass. You’ve come so far there’s no going back don’t forget to breathe. 👍🌺💕

RoisinO1
RoisinO1Administrator

Sorry to hear of the passing of your dear Bill, may he rest in peace ❣

You done the right thing coming on here Nowandforever , you have to be very strong now as you deal with your first major curve ball. If it means stopping drinking, please do to avoid jeopardizing your smoke free journey. You will feel so much worse with your grief if you smoke.

Wishing you continued strength and keep in touch with us when you can 😚

RoisinO1
RoisinO1Administrator in reply to RoisinO1

How are you now Nowandforever ?

Hi roisin

I’m not good

I totally stuffed up tonight.

And now must start afresh in the morning,

I feel sad that I failed tonight. I know I have made life hard for myself in the weeks to come.

I just had nothing in me to fight back tonight, just to devastated. He would be disappointed in me to.

Just gotta start anew tomorrow.

Sorry all xxx

RoisinO1
RoisinO1Administrator in reply to Nowandforever

Ah sorry Nowandforever - look forward to seeing you back very soon :)

RoisinO1
RoisinO1Administrator in reply to RoisinO1

How are you Nowandforever ?

haven’t had one since that horrible night. A couple of cravings but I expected that.

A sad time.

RoisinO1
RoisinO1Administrator in reply to Nowandforever

Wishing you strength during this very sad and difficult time, when you are ready, let me know your new stop date so I can continue to give your shiny milestone badges :)

micheala73
micheala731 Day Smoke Free in reply to Nowandforever

Stop it beating yourself up it's a smoke a trip up whatever you start again the next day no problem you haven't hurt anyone so keep your chin up

Thanks.... yes , didn’t want one this morning at all. Felt so sick from poisoning myself.

Not going back - as you said a little trip that’s all. Thanks micheala73

Rjg45
Rjg45500 Days Smoke Free

It’s a horrible time bereavement , You need to stay strong , you all ready are , and you know it will pass as it always has .. ..remember good times not sad ..Chin up raise that glass ...

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